Tuesday, March 26, 2013

The beginning of my fitness journey

My name is Fiona. I am 29 with three girls.

So I should start out by saying that I was once one of those annoyingly tiny girls. The girls that never gained much of any weight because I had a fast metabolism. That all stopped when I turned 14 and my parents divorced. My world got turned upside down and I became depressed. Not only were my parents getting divorced, but I was moving to a whole new country and leaving my friends behind. So I ate. I ate, and ate, and ate. Even though I ate a lot I only put on about 20 pounds in two years. Those 20 pounds came off so easily after I slipped out of my depression when I turned 16. I tried a diet my mom read about where you eat no carbs during the day except for one hour where you eat what ever you want for that one hour. It was the best hour of my life at that time. It was amazing! Although it's almost impossible to truly eat everything you want to in that hour. I found that out the hard way. I would always squirrel away junk for the next day. This diet may have not been the best or even life changing, but it melted the 20 pounds off and I was once again one of those annoying girls. I must explain though, this diet worked so well and so fast because I had a really fast metabolism.

Fast forward 5 years and I had my first baby. I was 21. Yes I was young. I know. Also I had put on that dreaded baby weight. That was a rough time for me as well. I was with a man who put me down and was terrible to me, so I became very depressed. After I decided to give him the boot and divorce him my outlook changed and all that weight just melted off on its own. That's what I like to think anyway. What really happened was I was on the broke persons diet. I ate maybe one meal a day and that meal happened to be healthy. It wasn't on purpose. I just got rid of dead weight which shrank my pockets which in turn got rid of the rest of the dead weight.

Fast forward another 8 years and we're at today's date. I have now had two more girls back to back. Before I was able to get rid of the baby weight with the first I was pregnant with another. I was also not able to breastfeed with the second Dylan because she was premature and wouldn't accept my nipple. So no getting rid of the weight that way. After the two pregnancies I went from 115 to 151. This sent me into another depression and my weight sky rocketed to 181. I am ashamed that my weight got that high, but I did it to myself. I moved to an area where it is easier to get fast food. By fast food I mean AMAZING fast food like Chipotle, Noodles, Five guys. You name it they've got it. Since I live less than five minutes from all this fast food it's easy for me to say "forget it. I'm going out to get some food. I don't feel like cooking."

What is the point of all this? I am telling you about my weight journey because I am making a change in my life. I want to hold myself accountable for what I put in my body from now on. I want to stop wishing for the amazing bodies that I see and actually have one of those bodies. I use to have one of those bodies but it seems so far away. I need to break this cycle and switch my life around. If not for me then for my kids at least. I'm hoping that you will join me in my journey and maybe I can inspire you as well to become a better you.
Here is my picture of me at my biggest. Hopefully I'll stay on track and I will lose all of this weight.

My plan is to keep a daily food journal, exercise at least once a day, and keep my calorie in take to around 1200 calories a day. I am using the myfitnesspal app on my iphone. If you have that app then add me. My name on that if fiefs20 or my email is fiefs20@aol.com. Maybe we can keep each other motivated to stay on track.

I plan on losing all of this weight in 15 weeks. This may be a long shot if I waver from my diet, but I think it's obtainable.

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